tapping our warrior energy
"stay vigilant", they say.
Hi all,
I hope spring is blessing with you beauty. :)
I’ve been quiet on here…again.
Honestly, my relationship with writing is a constant ebb and flow.
I don’t even know if I am any good.
Regardless, I’ve had this space for a few years now, and sometimes things ask to come through… and sometimes they sit in a draft folder, indefinitely.
I wrote this one back at the end of February.
And since writing this, I have been in a deep creative process, and things are now moving at hyper-speed (in a beautiful, spring-like way).
So in service to keeping the channel clear, I decided I will share the drafts. :)
If I can see it in my mind’s eye, it is possible.
Our eyes (yes, all three) are mini telescopes. They are designed to help us see up and out.
To help us envision BIG.
Our vision is such an important faculty, for physical survival, but also spiritual growth and connection to what is bigger than us.
However, at times it can be easy to lose sight of that. It was for me after I had a topsy-turvy landing back home following an extended trip.
When the ground beneath us feels unstable, no matter how fleeting, it can activate a guttural survival fear, and in an instant, our vision can vanish.
Luckily, in that moment, I could feel underneath the feeling of instability.
Remembering it is not the forever truth, I conjured up the strength to tend to myself and my sight.
To hone what I am taking in through my eyes and what I am not, as a way to protect and tap back into my warrior energy, my inner strength.
To put it plainly: I remembered I must be intentional about what I am and am NOT ingesting through my eyeballs, as to not clog up my telescope lens.
Keeping our vision clear is one element of remaining vigilant in these times.
Being aware of what we take in, how we cultivate our life-force, how we direct our mind, where we put our focus, and how we dream… are all valuable currencies, worthy of stewardship and protection.
Our attention, with all three of our eyes, is the most. valuable. thing.
& yes, even in this knowing, I still fell prey to an intense bout of hopelessness for 24 hours.
Not the subtle existential dread that hums in the background of these times that we have learned to push aside with the typical numbing or self-soothing agents… but a deep moment of despair.
The kind that brings you to your knees.
I felt myself get swept up into the collective swirl and when that feeling arrived, I knew I needed to take myself into a process to move the energy.
I got myself on my yoga mat, turned on a song, and instantly, the tears came.
That feeling of despair wanted to be seen and held first, without being fixed.
It told me how disconnected it felt from the things that support me and from my own warrior energy. This feeling cried out that it didn’t have the energy to to be strong in these times.
In that space, I moved my body in all the primal ways it was asking to.
The emotion moved and then I reached out for support from others who know this process intimately.
Once I moved that energy, I could hear and see again.
“Stay vigilant”, they said.
They had already sent me this message repeatedly on the wind, in a dream, and in fits of passion that bubbled up.
But it wasn’t until I was in the swirl, that I felt the reminder of how important it is to know:
1. What tools ground us into our bodies
2. Who we can call on for support
3. What causes us to feel hopeless
Why is this important?
Because we are being pumped with fear frequencies like no other right now. We are being told the game is over and that we are all already doomed.
Many of us know how this game goes and have been aware of its charade for awhile, but many others are just waking up to the flaws in the systems of our world and are feeling despair all the time.
We are in a time of death and transformation of the structures that hold an illusion of safety, and that can feel scary.
But what also happens during death?
Beauty, love, connection, and new life…but only if we can see that it is possible.
It takes work and consciousness to make sure we can see the good right now.
To me, being a warrior right now means harnessing our power to dream, envision, and believe that we can create positive solutions.
How can I remain connected to my humanness?
What helps me do that?
What takes me away from that?
What makes me feel alive?
What makes me feel like there is beauty in the future?
These are the questions I am asking.
The thing I keep coming back to in my work with death is that it’s a deeply human experience — one that holds the wisdom of the creation cycle.
We’ve been severed from that wisdom, yes, but when we reconnect to death as a sacred part of the life cycle here on Earth, we plug back into it — and we remember.
From that remembrance, we can see our dreams again.
We can create.
To me, tapping into warrior energy is about:
Plugging into the earth, into the heart, and into your own life-force to direct that energy, with full awareness, towards a beautiful vision and protecting that with a fierce love.
Everything is vying for our attention and our life-force right now.
Have you noticed?
What makes you feel like a warrior?